Things you can be praying about:

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Our host here has been sick lately, please be
praying for his health

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Team unity and community

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In two weeks our schedule picks up with Jon's
friend Richard joining us for a week, after he leaves a World Race team
(another AIM program) comes in. And two weeks after that we have our first
debrief.

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And everything that is written below

I've put off writing a new blog
for a while now. "This year is going to be hard. Sometimes you're going to want
to quit." Sometimes I wish I could remember more of what Tag (our former
director for the Novas project) warned us about.

I've become lethargic, my heart
isn't here, it isn't at home, and I honestly don't know where it is. Most of
the time especially in our room it is incredibly hot, and sometimes I feel like
I'm just not making a difference here. Last week we went to Manzini and spent the
night with some long term missionary friends of ours. At one point we began to
talk about love stories and marriage and it finally hit all of us at once that
as girls in our culture we romanticize marriage and just about everything else
too. We have romanticized everything, including
what this was going to look like for all of us.

We've reached a point in Nsoko
where most us are fed up with our moods, our hearts are heavy with everything
we are seeing and we want to do more.
Life in the country in Swaziland is very slow for a fast-paced American and there
are only so many things you can do to fill the time.

I'm tempted to end this blog with
a great story about how God has taken me out of this mood that I'm in. But that
hasn't happened yet, despite trying to focus on Him, despite trying to pull
myself out of this, and I want to be honest. So please be praying for us here.