How are you doing?
“How
are you doing?” It’s a question we often get from Jess, sometimes we want to
open up and talk other times we don’t, but we only get this question because
she cares.
The
other day I was just having one of those days. I got a few emails from home
church about a long time member of our community passing away. It made me
realize how much I’ve missed, how much I could miss, how life is something to
be cherished. It was the kind of day where I’m ready to be home, I question
whether or not I was even supposed to be here, and just begin to let everything
get to me. You would think that being faced with extreme poverty, with people
that have so many more true needs than I’ve ever had in my life would cure me
of having these moments but it certainly hasn’t. The want for privacy (what is
that anyway??), to see all of the people that I love and have missed so much
during the last 7 months, and the all around comforts of home is overwhelming. When
ever I get to this point, I simply feel selfish.
Jess
didn’t know any of this but that didn’t stop her from sitting next to me and
scratching my back the way a mother would with a child for about an hour until
I fell asleep. How did I see God today? In a blonde curly haired blue eyed face
of a teammate.
I’d like to point everyone to a blog that my teammate Lila put together called
Billboards.
Love this Katie! I’m so glad that after 7 months of being together, you are STILL seeing Christ in each other. 🙂
I love how God puts people together and how at just the right time they are Jesus to us. Hope these last couple weeks are the best yet!
My dear Katie. You are just where you should be. Sometimes we feel like we are abandoned to our feelings, but it helps to remember that Jesus went through all of the human feelings and He felt the same way on the cross. This is also good for me to remind myself of this. Being here with Jack and watching him slip away is difficult. I have been having a pity party of one lately and when I read your comments, it hit home. I know that this is an old e-mail, but I think it was a God thing that I read it today. I don’t keep up with my e-mail like I should. So I’ll be praying for you and maybe you can send a prayer my way. I love you and am so proud of you.
Charlotte